Many times, i can say i lost my direction while running my race. I lost track and lost focus. But time and time again i come back on track, to run my race again. It is not easy to be a disciple of Jesus Chirst. It is not easy to carry the cross. The word Selfless, is really one big heavy rock. What is true selflessness? In this word of hypocrisy, it doesn't exists. Maybe all of us humans are afraid of losing out and getting hurt. So we conformed to be adaptable, to survive in todays world, to be selfish. Every person have a certain degree of selfishness. Self awarness to think for one self first is our natural human instinct. I guess the only way out is to be so filled, immersed with God's love. That naturally we react like how Jesus would.

He says, "Give to everyone who asks of you. And from him who takes away your goods do not ask them back. And just as you want men to do to you, you also do to them likewise. But if you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? For even sinners love those who love them. And if you do good to those who do good to you, what credit is that to you? For even sinners do the same. And if you lend to those from whom you hope to receive back, what credit is that to you? For even sinners lend to sinners to receive as much back. But love your enemies, do good, and lend, hoping for nothing in return; and your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High. For He is kind to the unthankful and evil. Therefore be merciful, just as your Father also is merciful." (Luke 6:30-36)

"hoping for nothing in return..", - selflessness.

Many times we hope for something in return and it disappoints us, pull us down. Maybe that is the reason of burning out, the reason for being hopeless and depress of not having any results or outcome. I realised i'm one that expects something in return. This is real bad.

What does it feels like to be once again so filled with Your love?
What does it feels like to be carrying my cross once again?
What does it feels like to die to self again?
What does it feels like that is doesn't matters no more?

Teach me.