After much thoughts, i stand on one final decision. It was hard not to give in, it was hard to fight with the thoughts that contradicts. I gave up in the end and i'll wait.
All things work together for the good at the end of the day. I'm glad i've made the right choice this time round.
The LORD replied, "My precious, precious child.
I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering,
when you see only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you."